On my way.

Only Ethiopia stands in my way!

A gift from J.Z.

Fate.

Dedicated to Mishu,
in glory and disappearance. triumph and isolation.


The night was cold and unfriendly. My legs carried me, but the message I carried had long been forgotten. Every breath I took was an icicle piercing my lungs. Every thorn and stone seized the moment, grabbed all opportunities to cut at my flesh.

I beseeched the sun to make an early appearance, if not for his warmth than for his guidance. My call went unanswered. It seemed the concession was not worth his while.

I then begged the owl to forget his comfort zone and part from his branch of superiority. Tonight, just this moment, he should guide me to the light; make the glimmer a reality.

His stare was as blank and emotionless as ever, thus distancing himself from any burden or unease. How foolish I was. The owl was merely a spectator. My rush, my search was his entertainment. My end result was his bet.
In spite of the owl I raced forward. His aloofness only brightened the spark. Up in the mountain, across the valley, way beyond darkness’s reach, the spark was now looking more like a flash.

The moon expressed sympathy. But what good were his tears when they turn to rain and wrath? His sincere intentions only created mud, which sucked my energy from the core, which drained my strength till utter exhaustion. What was his compassion worth when is arm was out of reach?

My legs no longer carried my weight. Hope gave instructions while fatigue fought its battle. (What good is human attributes when one is out in the wild?) But beyond the disparity and within pain, my eyes once again encountered the inspiration; a flash that was now looking more like a glow.

It was at that moment that the mad man passed me by. Or was it I who passed him? Was he frozen in his tracks? Or was he speeding in frenzy?

Today, I only recollect his image and our words.Eyes Blood shot, bare foot, exposed scars, and drool running from his chin.

"Can we switch places? Can I hide in your infinite reality"?

I asked shouting, as if I wanted the entire universe to hear.

"Is it just me, or is the glow now looking more like a flame"?

The mad man simply closed his eyes, tightened his lips and shook his head as if to say: “tonight for once it is I who is sane. You my poor boy, you are the mad one.”

Had I not invaded his element, had I not exposed his domain, he would have been tearing at my pants begging for change. In a different life time, on a bright sunny day, I would have had the last laugh.

No time to waste, for the echo from the streams were bouncing off the treas. Her call only caused a maze of confusion. Blinded by misdirection, I still found the source; the rushing waters.

Water! Replenishes the soul, but on that night it froze every bone in my body. Waist deep, currents of shock running through my heart, I pushed forward breathing heavily while imagining the waves were clouds. Freedom depended on endurance. Endurance depended on the frame of mind.

Freed from the element of winter I reached the peak of the mountain. Waterlogged, I was carrying the weight of the past and the hunger for the future. I began my ascent. I used very rock as a step. I clawed my way upwards refusing to look down. I was victorious in my climb. Yet, I had no time or reason to celebrate. I was no longer breathing heavy. As a matter of fact I was no longer breathing at all.

Behold,

The spark of childhood laughed on by.

The flash of adolescence was short lived.

The glow of mid life was troublesome and uneventful.

The fire of ripe old age was tired and argumentative.

Regret had sunken my shoulders and moistened my eyes.

True, the fire was now looking more like flames. Indeed, the flames of hell.

Apartheid Rabbonim.

Dragon's Mountain.

The Cape.

Vacation is; When vacation is deserved.

Out Of Africa.

These images are dedicated to Dave.

In a previous life he was a Zulu warrior.
Today, he fries eggs, grills chops and cooks Cholent.

In a previous generation he had many wives and many cattle.
Today, he is sober one day out of the week.

And in all, despite what could, what should and what is.
He loves life and “Loves da boys”

Dave, may G-D bless you, your cricket and your alcohol.
These pictures are you! Enough said.

Succumbed to pressure.

Because you refuse to heal your open wounds, I don't need to justify the shadows dancing in the sun. Only those who take refuge in darkness are influenced by the image of pressure. Only those who breathe negativity succumb to the mirage of hate. Your dreams are a blur and your ambitions are to waste. It is you who must take responsibility for the walking corpse.

So when I stand by the edge, looking over the ledge and my eyes taste the bitter sweetness, don't attempt to talk me down. Your words are hollow and unfaithful.
And if I jump, by all means don't break my fall, for gravity and insanity is my peace of mind. I laugh while I experiment. You cry while you haven't even taken a step.

Scowl me, but be sure your thoughts are sincere.

Mock me, as long as one eye is open.

Mind me, as long as you follow me.

Until then, while ignoring the moment your open wounds are now deep seeded.